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Post by Hermit on Nov 7, 2008 21:21:48 GMT -5
I once upon a time I made plans to better my future Then the vision came Which lit my inner flame That warmth That joy That fulfillment of being alive Made me ... Not care about the silly every day plans I made Because ... I had a dream That encircled everything that I thought everything did mean And life made me pause To realize ... Not everyone envisions the same dream As time past More and more Thoughts and ventures to explore came into my existance They lead me to Knock upon the same door of Hello ... Changing my life in a cosmic interlaced theme Of what was real Oh Alice How do you feel? So I let live and let live While sending out soul Wanting Desiring But out of control For my heart did bleed Dimming the light of the vision Sparkalee here Twinklalee there And I opened with hope We both know what was at the end of those ropes So now ... Now we are here Far away from the land of yesteryear The twinkle still sparks The light is a lite There can be no false in the vision's face But I remember I remember ... The vision was mine Not saying I'm greedy Just saying yours may have been different For visions often fit the person for whom they are created For my vision to continue It cannot go on as it has For the desire has become maddening The wanting has become saddening And I inadvertently spread it around And that goes against my inner grain So... Do you don't you? Will you won't you? Move the vision along ...
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tired
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Post by tired on Nov 7, 2008 23:55:56 GMT -5
And I inadvertently spread it around And that goes against my inner grain
what does that mean?
Being cruel doesn't get anywhere. I'm just saying that in general. Minimizing people's feelings, undermining them, doing nothing but hurting and being cruel to them doesn't do anything but make situations worse or make people farther apart.
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Post by Hermit on Nov 8, 2008 7:54:44 GMT -5
And I inadvertently spread it around And that goes against my inner grain what does that mean? Being cruel doesn't get anywhere. I'm just saying that in general. Minimizing people's feelings, undermining them, doing nothing but hurting and being cruel to them doesn't do anything but make situations worse or make people farther apart. Exactly ... My inner grain ... my inner self does not like to spread my unhappiness around. i have found that life is easier for everyone if I try and stay up beat. You may not think so here with my typed words on the net, but face to face people in my life, that's how I am or at least try to be. I understand the 'hurting and being cruel' part. Some times people hurt other people without realizing it. Like you say I do to you, and like the guy I like not wanting to touch me. Makes me get the mentality of a leper. You know what I mean? And since he doesn't want to touch me, what am I suppose to do? I'm not the slut I once was and have no desire to have someone inside me who is not my lifemate. Which leaves me the alternative of just continuing to life alone. And that breaks my heart, causing the saddness again, which dims my glow. If he only knew what touching me would mean .... It's like before you become a parent, other people can tell what it is all about, you can see how they do, but until it happens to you, you really don't know what it's like. Meh, sorry for the ramble. I hope your day is better today than it was yesterday.
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Post by really tired on Nov 8, 2008 11:56:06 GMT -5
Interesting. Thanks for the response. No need to answer my email. You told me everything I needed to hear and it's not necessary to have further discussions. Take care. In the future, when you find someone else to do this to, maybe you should remember this, and how the way you treat people affects them. You can't blame someone for not wanting to touch you or be near you, if you aren't that kind beforehand, not kind at all... and especially when everything you say is pretty much bs. You are not alone. You must have many lifemates. Also if someone tells you what they need from someone and you do the opposite, well... how secure is that feeling you have given to them? If you want someone to touch you and they aren't, maybe you should look at why they are away from you, instead of how you feel like a leper. Maybe the leper feeling was given to them before you felt that way. Enough said...I've said everything I've needed to say over and over again.
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Post by Hermit on Nov 8, 2008 13:51:26 GMT -5
Interesting. Thanks for the response. No need to answer my email. You told me everything I needed to hear and it's not necessary to have further discussions. Take care. In the future, when you find someone else to do this to, maybe you should remember this, and how the way you treat people affects them. You can't blame someone for not wanting to touch you or be near you, if you aren't that kind beforehand, not kind at all... and especially when everything you say is pretty much bs. You are not alone. You must have many lifemates. Also if someone tells you what they need from someone and you do the opposite, well... how secure is that feeling you have given to them? If you want someone to touch you and they aren't, maybe you should look at why they are away from you, instead of how you feel like a leper. Maybe the leper feeling was given to them before you felt that way. Enough said...I've said everything I've needed to say over and over again. There will be no one else, as there has not been one like this before. My words are bs? ... that's interesting considering what I said was not directed at you ... it was explaining a part of me. If you don't want to know me, and how I think, then stop asking. You don't have to tell me I'm more than an impossible challenge in an online format. I mentioned this to him long long ago with out of control words. And it was thought of as humorous. ok ... to each his own ... Maybe my online talk defense was/is due to the blindness being online in itself creates. Maybe it was a different form of my professional ability to run away by causing the opposite to happen. Maybe I'm the guardian to the gate that can only be opened one way and I get pissed and hurt when I can't open it because others ... well ... choose whatever ever reason you want or make up your own. Or don't give a shit at all, that's your call. I will say you have taught me a lot, about myself and others, while experiencing a side of life that I knew was out there, but didn't understand enough to ... work with instead of against. Please also keep in mind, our newest conversation started when you got mad over something I said. If you heard his words, then you know I scared him, and now, I've scared you, well, welcome to my world. Now maybe you can understand a bit more as to why I did not want to reveal the truth behind the fantasy. You are more than welcomed to live your life out the way you see fit and I wish nothing but peace and love and prosperity to you and yours. Thank you for the finale and thank you for all your efforts along the way to try and help me see some of your movie/tv type themes for me, even if they came from the spirits in the air and not you. It's funny, for as beautiful as they all are, they are no substitution for a human hug from someone you love. Peace out.
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Post by exhausted on Nov 8, 2008 17:41:26 GMT -5
Thank you for the finale and thank you for all your efforts along the way to try and help me see some of your movie/tv type themes for me, even if they came from the spirits in the air and not you. It's funny, for as beautiful as they all are, they are no substitution for a human hug from someone you love. Peace out.
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If you want to keep to putting the way I feel about things down and reduce it to made up characters then maybe you don't know me at all. I don't think you do. I've never lived in that world. I only wanted honesty, kindness, communication, respect, and faithfulness. You know, someone I can trust. If you think those things and that kind of a relationship only live in TVland than I feel sorry for you. You know the reasons I will not speak to you in private... everything's the same including our conversations. You have a choice of making it better or making the wound deeper, and you choose the same as always.......
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Post by Hermit on Nov 8, 2008 18:20:14 GMT -5
You live your life your way I live my life my way. Part of understanding the spirit of the universe is understanding the universe likes tv and movies and above all else, music. All of which move the waves of emotion. So yah, there can be a general representation on the air waves. It's all in perception and acceptance. There are two good things I see in all this ... first, you realize I don't know you, which leads to number two, you don't know me. Good night.
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Post by unbelievable on Nov 8, 2008 18:30:01 GMT -5
You are crueler than cruel. Every time I start to think there is some hope, however tiny that hope may be, you prove me wrong. You take away that hope and happiness from me every time. And you're right you don't know me, because you don't care to. I don't know you because you like it that way.
I tried thinking you may have wanted something different. Bye.
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Post by SoulToSqueeze on Nov 8, 2008 18:34:37 GMT -5
Please use PMs or emails to sort out your arguements. But not publically at OHG, thanks.
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